i fell asleep last nite with the lizard liza gave me wrapped in my arms. i woke up around 9, and felt sad, but not as bad as yesterday. i don't know what to do anymore.

maybe it's sad, but she my motivation for getting thru school. for my parents? nope. For me? yeah, right. i did it for her because i thought we could be together, and now i'm not so sure. she's such a great girl, i worry because i all but know she's going to meet someone better than me, and that hurts even more.