liza called me while i was in the car with my dad, so i told her to call me back when i was alone, in the store or something. she did, and we talked for a little bit. long story short, we're just going to be friends right now. i mean, i knew it was going to happen, because what paul said to me made a lot of sense, as much as i didn't want it to. i still felt terrible after getting off the phone with her, but i knew it would be for the better. i can only hope we don't grow apart, because i really like her, and being without her for the rest of my life would be something i wouldn't be able to deal with.

i feel so depressed right now, but for once it might actually turn out for the better. i hope so.