Mood:sympathetic
Song:Kelis~Milkshake
it snowed today. quite a bit. and i still had physics to go to. marvelous. but today was just like monday:
8:00-9:50~ISS 210
10:20-11:10~MTH 234
6:00-6:50~PHY 183
not the most fun filled day, that's for sure. after math i went over to the international center to meet up with amy to have some lunch, and ended up waiting til 12 for her to show up. that pissed me off a bit, but i guess in retrospect it was cuz of the weather. plus, she didn't tell me she was bringing her boyfriend tony, so that was a bit of a surprise. except for the fact that he's a drug dealer, he seems like a pretty good guy. they dropped me back off at my room and then i just kinda relaxed for a bit, then did some homework, then left to go meet a girl i was selling my chem book to and to pick up my book for my ME 180 class. after that i went to physics, which was a yawn. then vlad and i went over to holden to grab dinner with josh, we hung out for a little bit and then we took the bus back to bailey. will was gone and still is, so i just relaxed and did some math and watched the pistons game.
liza came online, and it was weird cuz i was just sitting on the couch and something compelled me to go look at my buddy list, and there she was. we talked for a little while about the usual, which i always enjoy. she could be throwing marbles at my face and i'd still have a big goofy smile on my face. after we finished talking i decided to sit down and watch "chasing amy," which i can now say is Kevin Smith's best movie, in my opinion. there are some really great quotes in there about relationships and the movie as a whole made me appreciate the relationship i have with liza even more. Here's something that Holden (Ben Affleck) says that really hit a chord with me:
I love you. And not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. And it's not because you're unattainable. I love you. Very simple, very truly. You're the epitome of every attribute and quality I've ever looked for in another person. I know you think of me as just a friend, and that crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you'd ever consider. But I had to say it. I can't take it anymore. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can't look into your eyes without feeling that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. I know this will probably queer our friendship - no pun intended - but I had to say it, because I've never felt this before, and I like who I am because of it. And if bringing it to light means we can't hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But I couldn't allow another day to go by without getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And I'll accept that. But I know some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, that means you feel something too. All I ask is that you not dismiss that - at least for ten seconds - and try to dwell in it. Alyssa, there isn't another soul on this fucking planet who's ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it's there between you and me. You can't deny that. And even if we never speak again after tonight, please know that I'm forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me, which - while I do appreciate it - I'd never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of.
perhaps one of the best things i've heard said in a movie. good nite all.
Song:Kelis~Milkshake
it snowed today. quite a bit. and i still had physics to go to. marvelous. but today was just like monday:
8:00-9:50~ISS 210
10:20-11:10~MTH 234
6:00-6:50~PHY 183
not the most fun filled day, that's for sure. after math i went over to the international center to meet up with amy to have some lunch, and ended up waiting til 12 for her to show up. that pissed me off a bit, but i guess in retrospect it was cuz of the weather. plus, she didn't tell me she was bringing her boyfriend tony, so that was a bit of a surprise. except for the fact that he's a drug dealer, he seems like a pretty good guy. they dropped me back off at my room and then i just kinda relaxed for a bit, then did some homework, then left to go meet a girl i was selling my chem book to and to pick up my book for my ME 180 class. after that i went to physics, which was a yawn. then vlad and i went over to holden to grab dinner with josh, we hung out for a little bit and then we took the bus back to bailey. will was gone and still is, so i just relaxed and did some math and watched the pistons game.
liza came online, and it was weird cuz i was just sitting on the couch and something compelled me to go look at my buddy list, and there she was. we talked for a little while about the usual, which i always enjoy. she could be throwing marbles at my face and i'd still have a big goofy smile on my face. after we finished talking i decided to sit down and watch "chasing amy," which i can now say is Kevin Smith's best movie, in my opinion. there are some really great quotes in there about relationships and the movie as a whole made me appreciate the relationship i have with liza even more. Here's something that Holden (Ben Affleck) says that really hit a chord with me:
I love you. And not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. And it's not because you're unattainable. I love you. Very simple, very truly. You're the epitome of every attribute and quality I've ever looked for in another person. I know you think of me as just a friend, and that crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you'd ever consider. But I had to say it. I can't take it anymore. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can't look into your eyes without feeling that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. I know this will probably queer our friendship - no pun intended - but I had to say it, because I've never felt this before, and I like who I am because of it. And if bringing it to light means we can't hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But I couldn't allow another day to go by without getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And I'll accept that. But I know some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, that means you feel something too. All I ask is that you not dismiss that - at least for ten seconds - and try to dwell in it. Alyssa, there isn't another soul on this fucking planet who's ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it's there between you and me. You can't deny that. And even if we never speak again after tonight, please know that I'm forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me, which - while I do appreciate it - I'd never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of.
perhaps one of the best things i've heard said in a movie. good nite all.
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